with 2 simple questions and one despreate plea going through my head, 'How did i get here?', 'Whats happens now? and 'Please, please, if there is a god in the sky, please make this a terrible dream'. It's an extreme example of the kind of show-and-telling of his own destruction Rhodes did for over four years:įrom Friday, August 28, 2009, 'Summer Rain'īefore picking up the computer and spilling these thoughts out of my head i just sat there.
Or my liver to fails… which every comes first.'įrontiers L.A.com points to a post from two months ago, in which Rhodes discussed his use of meth and a resulting 72-hour period he spent at Bellevue under observation. Things went downhill from there and his expressed misery crossed platforms and ran all the way through his most recent Tumblr post: five days ago, he discussed his steroid and human growth hormone usage, adding, ' I'm waiting until i pop. I didn't know him from his porn work, which began in 2004, but from his painfully confessional online presence via a Blogspot blog he started in 2008 with a gushing post about a Marilyn Manson concert he attended. Rhodes seemed to consider putting it all out there as his round-the-clock job.
On Wednesday night, adult performer Erik Rhodes (born James Elliott Naughtin) died in his sleep of an apparent heart attack that may have had something to do with his use of steroids, says Towleroad.
